My life is so annoying these days. Annoying as in My moods aren't stable at all, I'm jumping right from hyper to meh to hyper again, same for my energy and motivation to get things done.
This is not really an emo post. Uh, I think so... Though I'm not really sure about that as well when I come to think of it...

Anyway, I spent those last two days with - uh - doing nothing really productive at all. I guess it started with that sudden feeling in the middle of the week that I don't have that same stress with multiple homework I have to do until tomorrow and that constant AAAAAAARGH in my brainz, uh, you get the picture. Not that I don't have anything to do anymore, on the contrary, but... this sudden feeling that I can finally relax a little (not too much) was probably too much a shock for me.:-\
Then there are those moments when I'm all excited and think that Yosh! Let's get things done ahead so I won't have to stress anymore! But then, don't ask me how or why, I never manage to do even half as much as I want to, if I get anything done at all. Instead I'm practicing to form onigiri in a proper triangle shape (Epic Fail by the way), I go for half a day trip to the opposite side of the city just to go for shopping in that huge asian supermarket. Or I'm doing sudoku. Or check the progress of my torrents every few minutes. Or...
...or get all emo because I suddenly realize that it's OMG SO LATE and I have wasted one more day.
Or I get this sudden DO WANT!!1 feeling that I want a gaming console, like Now! But gaming consoles are way too expensive and I don't have the time to waste on that and I can't play the very majority of 3D games without being sick for the whole day after about five to ten minutes of gaming at the latest and I can't decide on which one I want anyway. And when I realize that no, Nighty-chan can't have her pony right now, Nighty-chan wants to cry big tears and curl up in a corner and eat expensive chocolate ice cream to compensate and do anything but homeworks.;>_> And no, this is definitely not a serious depression, just a childish emo reaction. And annoying as hell, because the sane part of my mind may protest as much as it wants, the chibi!emo!part of me has it's hands pressed hard on it's ears singing LALALAAA CAN'T HEAR YOU!!!11 for way too long now.~___~

And now I'm debating whether I should stand up, leave either the computer or my sudoku and produce some food for this evening, tomorrow and a few more days of this week. I was really looking forward for that Malaysian curry I bought at the Asia store, it's simple as hell (curry out of the tin into a pan, add lots of vegetables (and meat if you want to), let it simmer for a while while cooking some rice, et voilà, have a delicious meal!♥), but now I'm not really hungry at all because I ate too many butter cookies and I got used to skip diner out of sheer laziness this week, and a good meal would be kind of a reward I do not deserve, but then I wouldn't need to cook tomorrow except for fresh rice which means that I could work more and...... *gasps for air*
Uhm, yeah. No, this was not supposed to be a pointless emo post in the beginning, I swear! But then maybe I should do some cooking today, eat something yummy and force myself to not browse the internet or dream of playing games I can't play without a console but watch one of the movies I got to Eastern last week. I could watch Kurosawa Akira's "Ran" that a friend lent me weeks ago. Or "Flying Daggers" that I don't know yet. Or "Bound", which I'm totally loving for the plot and because it's a great movie and such and not because of some random hot lesbians, no, not at all. *shakes head* Or Naruto, that I started to watch from the beginning a few days ago, this time in the right order until the end, or that's what I hope. *suppresses the urge to check the progress of her monster 37k GB torrent with 220 episodes once again*
Or I could just stop writing that much nonsense, get my ass from that comfy chair, put the cookies away and start doing something!

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*sigh*
Ok, go for cooking and a movie I guess, and then going to bed as early as I can, without the laptop on my knees, thank you very much. Oh, and not to forget: The alarm clock next morning.;>_>

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